Synopsis and Starting Chapter Chapter 1 - Detention
Chapter 2 - Concubine Yun
Chapter 3 - Encountering Joy Is The Norm Of Happiness
Chapter 4 - Fire
Chapter 5 - The Bath
Chapter 6 - The Bean-Like Plum Flower
Chapter 7 - Dealing With Anger
Chapter 8 - The Scheme
Chapter 9 - Fine Time, Beautiful Scenery
Chapter 10 - Paying Respect
Chapter 11 - The Punishment Of Protracted Kneeling
Chapter 12 - Mischievous Young Master
Chapter 13 - Tease
Chapter 14 - Unexpected Pleading
Chapter 15 - Sunbathing In A Hot Summer Day
Chapter 16 - The Illness Examination
Chapter 17 - Eavesdropping Inadvertently
Chapter 18 - Intimacy
Chapter 19 - Hostility
Chapter 20 - Unfamiliar Father And Mother
Chapter 21 - The Reason Of The Visit
Chapter 22 - Who Is The Little Fat Sheep?
Chapter 23 - The Ins And Outs Of The Matter
Chapter 24 - Losing When Taking It Seriously
Chapter 25 - The Fragrance Of Agarwood
Chapter 26 - The Wonderful Redwood Of Yingge
Chapter 27 - The Carved Rabbit
Chapter 28 - The Sachet
Chapter 29 - To Sympathize
Chapter 30 - The Summoning
Chapter 31 - Opposing Each Other With Equal Harshness
Chapter 32 - Condemning
Chapter 33 - Nothing To Discuss Regarding Kissing You
Chapter 34 - The Birthday
Chapter 35 - Going Out
Chapter 36 - Jingtian City
Chapter 37 - Pay The Money
Chapter 38 - The Idle Man On The Street
Chapter 39 - The Ecstasy Of The Purple Lilac
Chapter 40 - The Man Who Forced A Man
Chapter 41 - Eight Naked Men
Chapter 42 - Can’T Provoke A Black Belly
Chapter 43 - The Pendant
Chapter 44 - The House Of Danqing
Chapter 45 - The Interrogation
Chapter 46 - The Hidden Mind
Chapter 47 - The Warning
Chapter 48 - The Incident At The Restaurant
Chapter 49 - The Discussion
Chapter 50 - Fighting To The End
Chapter 51 - Borrowing A Sword To Hurt People
Chapter 52 - Away On The Summer Holidays
Chapter 53 - The Resort At Mountain
Chapter 54 - The Heavily Scented Building
Chapter 55 - The Scream Of The Small Lotus
Chapter 56 - The Misunderstanding
Chapter 57 - Blackmail
Chapter 58 - Test The Waters
Chapter 59 - The Meaning Of Executing With The Firing Squad
Chapter 60 - Each Person Has His Own Aspiration
Chapter 61 - The Heavy Bundle Wrapped In Cloth
Chapter 62 - The Joy In The Forest
Chapter 63 - The Cliff
Chapter 64 - Little Fourth Flipped Out
Chapter 65 - Ashamed
Chapter 66 - Keep Watch At Night
Chapter 67 - The Mysterious Voice
Chapter 68 - The Starved Girl
Chapter 69 - Inadvertently Peeping At A Bath
Chapter 70 - The Overbearing Maid
Chapter 71 - Hopelessly Entangled
Chapter 72 - The Perfect Coordination
Chapter 73 - Seeking Justice
Chapter 74 - Stealing A Kiss
Chapter 75 - Doesn’T Remember Anything
Chapter 76 - The Resentment
Chapter 77 - Skillfully Deflected
Chapter 78 - The Hidden Meaning Behind The Words
Chapter 79 - A Bag Of Gold
Chapter 80 - Carefree
Chapter 81 - Obsessed
Chapter 82 - Discussing In Private
Chapter 83 - Bewildered
Chapter 84 - The Flowery Bright Moon Was Covered In The Dark Fog
Chapter 85 - Every Night Holding A Handsome Man While Sleeping
Chapter 86 - The Mental Disparity
Chapter 87 - Enemies On A Narrow Road
Chapter 88 - Ream On
Chapter 89 - Identity
Chapter 90 - The Silence
Chapter 91 - The Emotional Outburst
Chapter 92 - The Search
Chapter 93 - The Truth
Chapter 94 - Wife, Don’T Be Angry
Chapter 95 - Concealing The Original Motive
Chapter 96 - Retain
Chapter 97 - The Night Of Gentleness
Chapter 98 - Don’T Want To See
Chapter 99 - I Am Your Mother
Chapter 100 - I Don’T Even Have A Copper Coin
Chapter 101 - Shang Xin
Chapter 102 - The Unspeakable Career
Chapter 103 - The Emerge Of The Feeling
Chapter 104 - Inquiring
Chapter 105 - The Ulterior Motive
Chapter 106 - The Slave Contract
Chapter 107 - Counting One’S Chickens Before They Are Hatched
Chapter 108 - Price Competition
Chapter 109 - Please Sir, Get Into The Boiling Pot
Chapter 110 - Get Out
Chapter 111 - Using Violence Is The Right Way Of The King
Chapter 112 - Mooncake
Chapter 113 - The Banquet Of The Mid-Autumn Festival
Chapter 114 - Ill-Timed Person
Chapter 115 - Little Cousin Sister, Please Conduct Yourself With Dignity
Chapter 116 - The Beggar At The Lantern Market
Chapter 117 - The Strong Love
Chapter 118 - Half-Cooked Rice
Chapter 119 - Bringing Trouble To Oneself
Chapter 120 - Thousand Five Hundred Liang
Chapter 121 - Very Stupid, Very Naive
Chapter 122 - The Sudden Grievous News
Chapter 123 - The Past
Chapter 124 - Absolutely Not
Chapter 125 - Grief
Chapter 126 - A Very Strange Thing
Chapter 127 - Searching For Clues
Chapter 128 - Pregnant
Chapter 129 - Candy
Chapter 130 - Who Is The Real Culprit?
Chapter 131 - Old Madam Is Furious
Chapter 132 - Prefer To Die Than To Admit
Chapter 133 - Why Torture Me By Hellish Means?
Chapter 134 - I Hated Him For A Long Time
Chapter 135 - Old Accumulated Grievances
Chapter 136 - Punishment
Chapter 137 - One Word Sentenced For Life
Chapter 138 - Risking One’S Life To Protect
Chapter 139 - Get Poisoned
Chapter 140 - Miscarriage
Chapter 141 - Old Madam, Save Her
Chapter 142 - Where Did The White Arsenic Come From?
Chapter 143 - Innocence
Chapter 144 - The Method Of Poisoning
Chapter 145 - The Miserable Past
Chapter 146 - Not To Stop Until Death
Chapter 147 - Not Believing At All
Chapter 148 - The Hidden Ugliness
Chapter 149 - Ironclad Evidence
Chapter 150 - Shifting The Misfortune To Someone Else
Chapter 151 - I Will Stay With You Forever
Chapter 152 - Rumor
Chapter 153 - The Sky Was About To Change
Chapter 154 - The Letter Of Announcing Divorce
Chapter 155 - No One Owed The Other
Chapter 156 - Goodbye
Chapter 157 - Shameless
Chapter 158 - Extort
Chapter 159 - Selling Herself To Save Her Mother
Chapter 160 - No Choice But To Suffer In Silence
Chapter 161 - Freeing Herself
Chapter 162 - New Home
Chapter 163 - The Life Outside Of The Residence
Chapter 164 - Tailoring
Chapter 165 - On A Windy Night With A Dark Moon
Chapter 166 - Catching A Thief
Chapter 167 - The Date Of Returning Is Distant
Chapter 168 - False Alarm
Chapter 169 - With One’S Heart Set On Speeding Home
Chapter 170 - Something Is Going To Happen
Chapter 171 - Question Intensely About Her Whereabouts
Chapter 172 - The Break Off Of The Relation
Chapter 173 - Facing An Imminent Catastrophe
Chapter 174 - Fleeing For One’S Life
Chapter 175 - Struggle In The Rain
Chapter 176 - The Reunion
Chapter 177 - An Old Friend That One Doesn’T Want To See
Chapter 178 - Rushing Back To Jingtian City
Chapter 179 - The Desolation In Aftermath Of A Disaster Was Everywhere
Chapter 180 - The Ban
Chapter 181 - Meeting But Doesn’T Know Each Other Yet
Chapter 182 - Locked Up In The Dungeon
Chapter 183 - Visit The Prisoner
Chapter 184 - Provoking Intentionally
Chapter 185 - Mess Less With Him
Chapter 186 - Unreconciled
Chapter 187 - Clear The City To Search For Someone
Chapter 188 - Clues
Chapter 189 - Five Silver Liang
Chapter 190 - Sorry, I’M Late
Chapter 191 - Embracing Indifferently
Chapter 192 - What Kind Of Weirdo?
Chapter 193 - The Most Incurable Poison
Chapter 194 - The Odor
Chapter 195 - Mean And Despicable
Chapter 196 - Revert The Incident By Taking Liberties With A Woman
Chapter 197 - The Marriage
Chapter 198 - Throw Out
Chapter 199 - The Deep Feeling
Chapter 200 - Obituary Notice
Chapter 201 - Backfire
Chapter 202 - The Taboo Feelings
Chapter 203 - Eavesdrop
Chapter 204 - Affectionate Couple
Chapter 205 - The Back Garden In The Middle Of The Night
Chapter 206 - Escape
Chapter 207 - The Discovery Of The Incident
Chapter 208 - Taunting Sarcastically
Chapter 209 - Stealing A Kiss
Chapter 210 - Wait For Me To Deal With A Matter
Chapter 211 - Dressing And Grooming Oneself
Chapter 212 - The Wedding
Chapter 213 - The Dejection Of The Wedding Night
Chapter 214 - The Jade Pendant
Chapter 215 - The Past Fate
Chapter 216 - Decreed By Fate
Chapter 217 - Why Care About Who Wants To Cross The Single-Log Bridge?
Chapter 218 - Do Your Best And Listen To The Mandate Of Heaven
Chapter 219 - Could Die In Peace
Chapter 220 - Arranged Properly
Chapter 221 - Giving You The Cold-Shoulder
Chapter 222 - To Bully Intolerably
Chapter 223 - You Are Something!
Chapter 224 - New Rules
Chapter 225 - Wife, Your Medicine
Chapter 226 - Ten Fingers Intertwined
Chapter 227 - Don’T Turn Your Back On The Good Period Of Time
Chapter 228 - The Happiness Of A Dragon And A Phoenix (Twins)
Chapter 229 - Little Fourth’S Marriage
Chapter 230 - Perish That Thought
Chapter 231 - Loosen The Reins Only To Grasp Them Better
Chapter 232 - Begging Earnestly
Chapter 233 - Ending Part 1 The Happy Occasion Filled The House
Chapter 234 - Ending Part 2 The Happy Occasion Filled The House
Categories Genre: All, Historical, Josei, Ongoing, Romance Status: Ongoing Alternative names: Gazing Huan, Seeking Affection, 顾盼生欢, ______
Total Chapters in book: 235
Estimated words: 424262 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 2121(@200wpm)___ 1697(@250wpm)___ 1414(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 424262 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 2121(@200wpm)___ 1697(@250wpm)___ 1414(@300wpm)
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Chapter 18 Intimacy
It was deep in the night. The moon hung in the sky.
Shu Huan sat in front of the dressing table and looked at the delicate handmade golden bracelet in her hand.
She used to think that jewelries made of gold were tacky. But the light that came from this pair of bracelets under the light would obviously make people exclaim in admiration. To the present her, whether a jewelry was beautiful or not wasn’t the most important thing. The most important thing was its value. This pair of golden bracelets was heavy in her palm. It gave her a lot of security.
Presumably most of her future would depend on them!
Shu Huan sighed and put the pair of golden bracelets in a rosewood jewelry box. Then, she picked up that jade annulus that symbolizes good fortune and looked at it.
Just then, behind her came the sound of the curtain being lifted. She panicked and quickly put the jade in the jewelry box. Then, she closed the lid.
The one who came in was Gu Xiran. She could hear the laughter in his voice, “You looked at them the whole night. Is it still not enough?”
It seemed that she had long been discovered by him!
“Not enough!” Shu Huan’s face reddened and she still pretended that nothing was the matter, “I came from a poor family and am short-sighted. I’ve never seen such valuable things. Naturally, I have to look longer at them.”
Gu Xiran revealed a profound smile, “When women like money, usually it’s because they lack sense of security.”
Shu Huan wanted to refute. She opened her mouth but found out that she couldn’t refute him.
His words were somewhat reasonable. At least, that was the case for her.
Yi Shu said in her book “Loving Jewel”: I have a lot of love. If there’s no love, then I have a lot of money. If neither is available then, health was also great.
Yi Shu is a popular Hong Kong writer.
In the past, she possessed many loves from her parents, families and friends. These loves made her life worry-free.
Now, she only had health left. Although, she didn’t lack food and clothing for the time being, but those were given by others. She had to exchange self-respect and freedom for them. If one day, the other party doesn’t want to give anymore, he could retract it any moment. He didn’t even have to give her a reason and explanation. Then, aside from accumulating a bit of valuable things for herself to leave a way out for her, what else could she do?
After all, she didn’t have a long-lasting sense of security.
It happened that hard work and relying on oneself was useless for the women of this age. It made it impossible for her to even find a sense of security in a career.
Shu Huan’s enthusiasm came to an end. She pushed the jewelry box onto the end of the dressing table and stood up.
“Come here.” Gu Xiran leaned against the bed rail and beckoned at her with his index finger.
Shu Huan lowered her eyes and walked obediently to him. “Does second young master want to drink tea?”
Gu Xiran shook his head and looked at her for a moment. Suddenly, he grabbed one of her hands and pulled her into his arms.
This was too unexpected!
When she was pulled into his arms, Shu Huan smelled a faint smell of medicine. She didn’t recover her senses yet, when his chin came close to her ear. He used a very low voice to slowly say, “When two people are together, would you feel more sense of security being like this?”
There was a subtle trace of seduction in his voice as if it had a hypnotic effect.
While she was absent-minded, she had been turned over and pressed down by him.
Panicked, Shu Huan wanted to reach out and push him away. However, although, he was weak from the illness, the weight of his body was still there. She pushed for a bit, but couldn’t push him away. She saw his eyes smile at her full of seduction.
This smile was like a ripple, making her heart and soul shake.
Only in this short moment of absent-mindedness, his handsome face lowered to hers…
Shu Huan’s body tensed nervously and she hurriedly said, “Don’t…”
The voice was very low. So low that it seemed like she was begging.
Gu Xiran hesitated for a moment. The kiss that was supposed to fall on her lips landed on her forehead.
It felt slightly warm.
After the kiss, Gu Xiran pushed up his body slightly up. His finger played with the belt of her robe. He looked at her in the eyes and asked with a somewhat hoarse voice, “You don’t want?”
From the moment that Shu Huan was born till now, this was the first time she had been so close to a man. What scared her the most was that she didn’t feel disgust at his closeness to her! She only knew that she was very nervous. So nervous that she felt a bit overwhelmed. At this time, she couldn’t even speak. The only things she could do was shake her head and shake her head again.
Of course she wasn’t willing!
One step further was a consignation to eternal damnation!
If it was someone else; someone who didn’t make her feel so much danger, she might’ve consider surrendering her body if there was no way out, become that person’s wife and then ignore his existence and live her peaceful days.
But Gu Xiran wouldn’t do!
She felt something unclear towards him. An unclear sense of familiarity. Besides, she felt that he was very dangerous. So dangerous that there was a possibility that when she surrenders her body, she might surrender her heart together with it.
Once she had formed feelings for him, she couldn’t ignore his matters anymore. Love was something selfish. She would want to monopolize him. She would become a repulsive and jealous wife. In the end, she would suffer, he would suffer, and others would suffer!
“Not willing!” After shaking her head for a while, she gradually regained her senses. Although, the words that came out were like the voice of a mosquito.
Gu Xiran’s look was hidden with depth. She didn’t know what he was thinking. He played with her belt and looked at her for a long time. Finally, he let go and his lips curved up a bit, revealing a faintly mocking smile, “You said you don’t want to. Later, don’t say that I was inhuman.”
The voice was low and had infinite seduction in it.
Shu Huan recalled the conversation in the yard at noon. She suddenly blushed. She said angrily from shyness, “Get up quickly!”
Gu Xiran hadn’t moved yet, when the sound of the curtain being lifted was heard. Concubine Yun came in with a smile, “Second young master, I made nourishing soup…”
She didn’t finish speaking and was already silent.
Shu Huan looked at the entrance. She saw that concubine Yun froze there with a face of astonishment and helplessness. That astonishment became grief and resentment. Her long eyelashes trembled, and she couldn’t control her eyes from becoming red.
Shu Huan was very speechless!
Shu Huan had the feeling of being caught in an adulterous act in bed! Although, her identity was there and she didn’t have to explain anything to concubine Yun, she still felt very awkward. Her face became redder. Flustered, she pushed Gu Xiran.
At this time, Gu Xiran didn’t move anymore. He didn’t even turn his head. He only said faintly, “Put the soup on the table. Next time when you come in, remember to announce first.”
“Yes,” Concubine Yun’s voice was so low that it hardly could be heard.
It could be imagined how embarrassed and hurt she must feel. Shu Huan turned her gaze and didn’t look at her anymore.
It was so embarrassing. She didn’t dare to move and looked at Gu Xiran like this. She didn’t know how much time had passed. It seemed to be just a moment, but it also felt to be forever until the room was quiet again and there was no more sound.
Only now did Gu Xiran smile faintly and let her got up.
Shu Huan panicked went to the other side of the bed and held the quilt. She looked at him with a bit of vigilance: This bastard was really abominable. The moment he found out that his body was not sick anymore, he turned into a lecher!
Gu Xiran laughed in spite of himself, “Why are you being like this? I haven’t forced you.”
“You attacked sneakily! Too shameless!”
“Did I?” Gu Xiran showed a face full of innocence. “Didn’t I give you a prior notice a long time ago?”
That was also considered a notice?
She had long forgotten the matters that happened at noon!
Forget it, let’s not keep tangling on this matter. Shu Huan changed her tone and probed, “Can I change places to sleep?”
Gu Xiran didn’t even think about it. “No!”
“Why?!”
“There are no more empty rooms. Or, why don’t you go sleep with Yun Yan in the West Chamber?”
Impossible!
Shu Huan shook her head. Concubine Yun probably hates her to death now. If she went over, then she really was blind.
“See, it’s that you are unwilling. It’s not that I don’t let you go.” While Gu Xiran said that, he ignored the bowl of nourishing soup concubine Yun brought in, took off his outer robe and blew out the candle.
Shu Huan sat in the dark and didn’t move.
After a while, she heard Gu Xiran say, “If you don’t lie and sleep now, I will repeat what I have just done to you. This time, I will not stop.”
A clear threat!
Fortunately, after living together these past three days, Shu Huan knew that he wasn’t a despicable person. From the meaning of those words, she understood that he no longer had the intentions to make things hard for her. She obediently lay down on the bed. However, her body was still close to the wall and far away from him.
If the mind was too tensed up, it was easy to get tired. Although, she told herself not to fall asleep before Gu Xiran fell asleep, in the end, she unconsciously fell asleep. She didn’t know that Gu Xiran came closer to her in the dark. He gently wrapped a finger around her hair and played with it. He said in a low voice, “If there isn’t you at my side, I also don’t have a sense of security…”
Total Chapters in book: 235
Estimated words: 424262 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 2121(@200wpm)___ 1697(@250wpm)___ 1414(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 424262 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 2121(@200wpm)___ 1697(@250wpm)___ 1414(@300wpm)
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