Synopsis and Starting Chapter Chapter 1 - Detention
Chapter 2 - Concubine Yun
Chapter 3 - Encountering Joy Is The Norm Of Happiness
Chapter 4 - Fire
Chapter 5 - The Bath
Chapter 6 - The Bean-Like Plum Flower
Chapter 7 - Dealing With Anger
Chapter 8 - The Scheme
Chapter 9 - Fine Time, Beautiful Scenery
Chapter 10 - Paying Respect
Chapter 11 - The Punishment Of Protracted Kneeling
Chapter 12 - Mischievous Young Master
Chapter 13 - Tease
Chapter 14 - Unexpected Pleading
Chapter 15 - Sunbathing In A Hot Summer Day
Chapter 16 - The Illness Examination
Chapter 17 - Eavesdropping Inadvertently
Chapter 18 - Intimacy
Chapter 19 - Hostility
Chapter 20 - Unfamiliar Father And Mother
Chapter 21 - The Reason Of The Visit
Chapter 22 - Who Is The Little Fat Sheep?
Chapter 23 - The Ins And Outs Of The Matter
Chapter 24 - Losing When Taking It Seriously
Chapter 25 - The Fragrance Of Agarwood
Chapter 26 - The Wonderful Redwood Of Yingge
Chapter 27 - The Carved Rabbit
Chapter 28 - The Sachet
Chapter 29 - To Sympathize
Chapter 30 - The Summoning
Chapter 31 - Opposing Each Other With Equal Harshness
Chapter 32 - Condemning
Chapter 33 - Nothing To Discuss Regarding Kissing You
Chapter 34 - The Birthday
Chapter 35 - Going Out
Chapter 36 - Jingtian City
Chapter 37 - Pay The Money
Chapter 38 - The Idle Man On The Street
Chapter 39 - The Ecstasy Of The Purple Lilac
Chapter 40 - The Man Who Forced A Man
Chapter 41 - Eight Naked Men
Chapter 42 - Can’T Provoke A Black Belly
Chapter 43 - The Pendant
Chapter 44 - The House Of Danqing
Chapter 45 - The Interrogation
Chapter 46 - The Hidden Mind
Chapter 47 - The Warning
Chapter 48 - The Incident At The Restaurant
Chapter 49 - The Discussion
Chapter 50 - Fighting To The End
Chapter 51 - Borrowing A Sword To Hurt People
Chapter 52 - Away On The Summer Holidays
Chapter 53 - The Resort At Mountain
Chapter 54 - The Heavily Scented Building
Chapter 55 - The Scream Of The Small Lotus
Chapter 56 - The Misunderstanding
Chapter 57 - Blackmail
Chapter 58 - Test The Waters
Chapter 59 - The Meaning Of Executing With The Firing Squad
Chapter 60 - Each Person Has His Own Aspiration
Chapter 61 - The Heavy Bundle Wrapped In Cloth
Chapter 62 - The Joy In The Forest
Chapter 63 - The Cliff
Chapter 64 - Little Fourth Flipped Out
Chapter 65 - Ashamed
Chapter 66 - Keep Watch At Night
Chapter 67 - The Mysterious Voice
Chapter 68 - The Starved Girl
Chapter 69 - Inadvertently Peeping At A Bath
Chapter 70 - The Overbearing Maid
Chapter 71 - Hopelessly Entangled
Chapter 72 - The Perfect Coordination
Chapter 73 - Seeking Justice
Chapter 74 - Stealing A Kiss
Chapter 75 - Doesn’T Remember Anything
Chapter 76 - The Resentment
Chapter 77 - Skillfully Deflected
Chapter 78 - The Hidden Meaning Behind The Words
Chapter 79 - A Bag Of Gold
Chapter 80 - Carefree
Chapter 81 - Obsessed
Chapter 82 - Discussing In Private
Chapter 83 - Bewildered
Chapter 84 - The Flowery Bright Moon Was Covered In The Dark Fog
Chapter 85 - Every Night Holding A Handsome Man While Sleeping
Chapter 86 - The Mental Disparity
Chapter 87 - Enemies On A Narrow Road
Chapter 88 - Ream On
Chapter 89 - Identity
Chapter 90 - The Silence
Chapter 91 - The Emotional Outburst
Chapter 92 - The Search
Chapter 93 - The Truth
Chapter 94 - Wife, Don’T Be Angry
Chapter 95 - Concealing The Original Motive
Chapter 96 - Retain
Chapter 97 - The Night Of Gentleness
Chapter 98 - Don’T Want To See
Chapter 99 - I Am Your Mother
Chapter 100 - I Don’T Even Have A Copper Coin
Chapter 101 - Shang Xin
Chapter 102 - The Unspeakable Career
Chapter 103 - The Emerge Of The Feeling
Chapter 104 - Inquiring
Chapter 105 - The Ulterior Motive
Chapter 106 - The Slave Contract
Chapter 107 - Counting One’S Chickens Before They Are Hatched
Chapter 108 - Price Competition
Chapter 109 - Please Sir, Get Into The Boiling Pot
Chapter 110 - Get Out
Chapter 111 - Using Violence Is The Right Way Of The King
Chapter 112 - Mooncake
Chapter 113 - The Banquet Of The Mid-Autumn Festival
Chapter 114 - Ill-Timed Person
Chapter 115 - Little Cousin Sister, Please Conduct Yourself With Dignity
Chapter 116 - The Beggar At The Lantern Market
Chapter 117 - The Strong Love
Chapter 118 - Half-Cooked Rice
Chapter 119 - Bringing Trouble To Oneself
Chapter 120 - Thousand Five Hundred Liang
Chapter 121 - Very Stupid, Very Naive
Chapter 122 - The Sudden Grievous News
Chapter 123 - The Past
Chapter 124 - Absolutely Not
Chapter 125 - Grief
Chapter 126 - A Very Strange Thing
Chapter 127 - Searching For Clues
Chapter 128 - Pregnant
Chapter 129 - Candy
Chapter 130 - Who Is The Real Culprit?
Chapter 131 - Old Madam Is Furious
Chapter 132 - Prefer To Die Than To Admit
Chapter 133 - Why Torture Me By Hellish Means?
Chapter 134 - I Hated Him For A Long Time
Chapter 135 - Old Accumulated Grievances
Chapter 136 - Punishment
Chapter 137 - One Word Sentenced For Life
Chapter 138 - Risking One’S Life To Protect
Chapter 139 - Get Poisoned
Chapter 140 - Miscarriage
Chapter 141 - Old Madam, Save Her
Chapter 142 - Where Did The White Arsenic Come From?
Chapter 143 - Innocence
Chapter 144 - The Method Of Poisoning
Chapter 145 - The Miserable Past
Chapter 146 - Not To Stop Until Death
Chapter 147 - Not Believing At All
Chapter 148 - The Hidden Ugliness
Chapter 149 - Ironclad Evidence
Chapter 150 - Shifting The Misfortune To Someone Else
Chapter 151 - I Will Stay With You Forever
Chapter 152 - Rumor
Chapter 153 - The Sky Was About To Change
Chapter 154 - The Letter Of Announcing Divorce
Chapter 155 - No One Owed The Other
Chapter 156 - Goodbye
Chapter 157 - Shameless
Chapter 158 - Extort
Chapter 159 - Selling Herself To Save Her Mother
Chapter 160 - No Choice But To Suffer In Silence
Chapter 161 - Freeing Herself
Chapter 162 - New Home
Chapter 163 - The Life Outside Of The Residence
Chapter 164 - Tailoring
Chapter 165 - On A Windy Night With A Dark Moon
Chapter 166 - Catching A Thief
Chapter 167 - The Date Of Returning Is Distant
Chapter 168 - False Alarm
Chapter 169 - With One’S Heart Set On Speeding Home
Chapter 170 - Something Is Going To Happen
Chapter 171 - Question Intensely About Her Whereabouts
Chapter 172 - The Break Off Of The Relation
Chapter 173 - Facing An Imminent Catastrophe
Chapter 174 - Fleeing For One’S Life
Chapter 175 - Struggle In The Rain
Chapter 176 - The Reunion
Chapter 177 - An Old Friend That One Doesn’T Want To See
Chapter 178 - Rushing Back To Jingtian City
Chapter 179 - The Desolation In Aftermath Of A Disaster Was Everywhere
Chapter 180 - The Ban
Chapter 181 - Meeting But Doesn’T Know Each Other Yet
Chapter 182 - Locked Up In The Dungeon
Chapter 183 - Visit The Prisoner
Chapter 184 - Provoking Intentionally
Chapter 185 - Mess Less With Him
Chapter 186 - Unreconciled
Chapter 187 - Clear The City To Search For Someone
Chapter 188 - Clues
Chapter 189 - Five Silver Liang
Chapter 190 - Sorry, I’M Late
Chapter 191 - Embracing Indifferently
Chapter 192 - What Kind Of Weirdo?
Chapter 193 - The Most Incurable Poison
Chapter 194 - The Odor
Chapter 195 - Mean And Despicable
Chapter 196 - Revert The Incident By Taking Liberties With A Woman
Chapter 197 - The Marriage
Chapter 198 - Throw Out
Chapter 199 - The Deep Feeling
Chapter 200 - Obituary Notice
Chapter 201 - Backfire
Chapter 202 - The Taboo Feelings
Chapter 203 - Eavesdrop
Chapter 204 - Affectionate Couple
Chapter 205 - The Back Garden In The Middle Of The Night
Chapter 206 - Escape
Chapter 207 - The Discovery Of The Incident
Chapter 208 - Taunting Sarcastically
Chapter 209 - Stealing A Kiss
Chapter 210 - Wait For Me To Deal With A Matter
Chapter 211 - Dressing And Grooming Oneself
Chapter 212 - The Wedding
Chapter 213 - The Dejection Of The Wedding Night
Chapter 214 - The Jade Pendant
Chapter 215 - The Past Fate
Chapter 216 - Decreed By Fate
Chapter 217 - Why Care About Who Wants To Cross The Single-Log Bridge?
Chapter 218 - Do Your Best And Listen To The Mandate Of Heaven
Chapter 219 - Could Die In Peace
Chapter 220 - Arranged Properly
Chapter 221 - Giving You The Cold-Shoulder
Chapter 222 - To Bully Intolerably
Chapter 223 - You Are Something!
Chapter 224 - New Rules
Chapter 225 - Wife, Your Medicine
Chapter 226 - Ten Fingers Intertwined
Chapter 227 - Don’T Turn Your Back On The Good Period Of Time
Chapter 228 - The Happiness Of A Dragon And A Phoenix (Twins)
Chapter 229 - Little Fourth’S Marriage
Chapter 230 - Perish That Thought
Chapter 231 - Loosen The Reins Only To Grasp Them Better
Chapter 232 - Begging Earnestly
Chapter 233 - Ending Part 1 The Happy Occasion Filled The House
Chapter 234 - Ending Part 2 The Happy Occasion Filled The House
Categories Genre: All, Historical, Josei, Ongoing, Romance Status: Ongoing Alternative names: Gazing Huan, Seeking Affection, 顾盼生欢, ______
Total Chapters in book: 235
Estimated words: 424262 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 2121(@200wpm)___ 1697(@250wpm)___ 1414(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 424262 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 2121(@200wpm)___ 1697(@250wpm)___ 1414(@300wpm)
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Chapter 46 The hidden mind
The miserable appearance of Huiyun was i ndeed pitiful and would make people feel compassion. If someone who didn’t know the ins and outs of the matter entered now, they would really think that Shu Huan had a poisonous heart and was maltreating a maid! Who would know that it was because Huiyun had betrayed her masters and reported to the other side that almost caused the destruction of Shu Huan’s reputation, she would be divorced and driven out of Gu residence?
The person didn’t have the heart to harm the tiger, but the tiger had the wish to injure the person!
To this point, Huiyun was still shirking the responsibility and telling half-truths and half-lies. Aside from being afraid to be punished, there was no feeling of remorse!
After having hardened her heart, Shu Huan sat down firmly. Her calm eyes stared at Huiyun, waiting for her to continue. In fact, even if she (H) didn’t say it, she could guess what benefits old madam had promised her.
To the ancient women who were restricted by virtues and who couldn’t have a career and be independent, what could be more tempting than a good man who they could rely on?
Sure enough, Huiyun couldn’t stand against the interrogation and told everything while she wept.
The benefit that old madam promised her was that after Gu Xiran had married and got a bit better, she (OM) would return her (H) slave contract, prepare a dowry for her and grandiosely make her into a concubine.
A concubine wasn’t a maid to warm the bed. A concubine had face and respect. What’s more, she was to be taken in after her slave contract had been returned. Even if she wasn’t an honorable concubine, she would be of higher status than concubine Yun. If she also gave birth to a son, then she wouldn’t have to worry about the future anymore. It was always better than being given to a servant when she reached adulthood. If that was the case, then the child she’d give birth to would also still be a slave and endure a hard and poor life.
Of course, Huiyun only said what she could say openly. The words that she couldn’t say openly, she buried them deep in her heart.
Originally, she didn’t have any admiration for the frail and sick second young master. Even if she became his concubine, she would have to worry when he would die and let her fall again from the high branch back to her original place. Because of her identity as a maid and because she was afraid that if she served poorly, she would be punished by old madam, so, she had always been carefully caring for him.
Until when he married Shu Huan, she saw his body get better day after day. There were also more smiles on his face and he wasn’t so uncommunicative and antisocial as before. Also, he showed confidence with every gesture and he got more handsome and refined every passing day. All of these made her captivated. She couldn’t control her heart from being moved. She wanted to see him every day and at every moment. She wanted to stay at his side all her life…
It was just, these changes didn’t happen because of her but they happened because of the second young mistress in front of her.
Every perspicacious person could see how much he indulged and cherished this second young mistress who came from a poor family, who didn’t even have a dowry. She was only a youthful beauty who had a lucky life!
They were all daughters from a poor family. Why could she only be a maid and in order to become a concubine, she had to rack her brain for schemes, while this second young mistress didn’t have to do anything? She didn’t even see her (SH) be respectful and fawn upon second young master, why was she able to be loved in the palm of his hands? Such a strong contrast made her unable to not feel resentful and jealous.
She felt resentful that the Heavens was unfair and jealous because she (SH) could get second young master’s love.
Huiyun was used to hiding her thoughts and never revealed her emotions on her face. If it was like this, she would just bite her teeth and endure it. After all, she had never expected to be the only one to be pampered and loved. Moreover, now she was just a maid. She only wished to keep watch every few days at the small kitchen outside of the curtain to be close to second young master. While he was asleep, she could use to opportunity when she was tucking him in to look at him quietly…
She didn’t expect that the Heavens wasn’t even willing to grant such a humble request from her!
After this second young mistress began to sleep in the main chamber, second young master no longer let people stay up at night. Sometimes, he would even act cute to let second young mistress do things like washing his face. Not to mention the medication. He would only drink the medicine brought by second young mistress instead of smashing the bowl in anger…
Second young mistress also picked two well-behaved and good-looking personal maids. She didn’t know whether she (SH) wanted to let them become second young master’s after she (SH) had lost favor. So, she could get favored again and show her virtuousness. Anyway, even such a gentle and cautious woman like concubine Yun who was the only one to be favored by second young master had fallen from grace. Such a maid like her naturally had less chance to get close to second young master.
Their love and affection were a piercing pain in her heart. So painful that she had to use all her efforts to not show anything on her face. That was the moment when she discovered that she had deviated from her original intention to come to Plum Flower Pavilion. Originally, she only wished to have a peaceful and stable life. Now, she was caught in the sad situation where love gave birth to hate and she had no way back.
When the small room in Plum Flower Pavilion caught fire, it was she who took advantage that there was no one outside in the quiet night and that everyone was in the land of dreams, to sneak out and report to old madam’s personal maid. However, she didn’t expect that concubine Yun would also stick a foot in this matter by using the outspoken Qiaoyun. This inadvertently covered for her.
It was her who spread the rumor that second young mistress was pregnant.
When she went to send the piece of cloth to Shu family, she inquired a bit about that young scholar who taught her (SH) how to read. She also heard a bit outside of concubine Yun’s chamber. Then, she reported it to old madam. It was a pity that there was only a sachet. There wasn’t much to show the affair. Second young mistress cut her wrist in front of old madam to show her chastity and easily touched old madam’s heart. Instead, it was concubine Yun who got reprimanded for being meddlesome.
The repeated failures made her resentment deeper. When she found out it was fake that second young mistress cut her wrist and had been taken out for a stroll by second young master, she couldn’t stand it anymore.
She knew that old madam hated it the most when someone deceived her. If old madam got to know about this matter, she could borrow old madam’s hand to completely push second young mistress outside of Gu household and let her disappear forever from second young master’s life!
She had always been cautious. The first two times that Zisu came over, when she found out that she didn’t have a way to pass the information, she could still keep her composure. When Zisu came for the last time, she felt that she would waste the opportunity if she missed this time. She had to take the risk and thought that even if she was discovered by concubine Yun, concubine Yun would remain silent because they had a tacit mutual understanding.
She calculated everything, but didn’t count on that second young master would give concubine Yun a reminder before leaving; if something happened, concubine Yun would bear the full responsibility. Such a clever person naturally would refuse to take the blame for her. Moreover, concubine Yun was already angry at her because of the matter of the sachet. Things had evolved to such an irremediable state…
Huiyun cried on the ground. She wasn’t remorseful. She was afraid of how she would be disposed of. If she was beaten, she could grit her teeth and endure it. If she was sold, she would be consigned to eternal damnation.
Shu Huan didn’t know that she (H) had so many hidden thoughts that she didn’t say out loud. Even if she (SH) could guess it, she would have to waste a lot of energy to guess them step by step. She didn’t have the hobby to waste her brain cells on such obscure things. She also didn’t like to let other people’s negativity affect her relatively clear and bright state of mind. Hence, she only looked at Huiyun for a short moment and asked Gu Xiran, “How to deal with her?”
Gu Xiran wasn’t sure about Huiyun’s out of the ordinary feelings towards him. However, he could sense them a bit. He felt that it was really dangerous to let her stay by his side. He didn’t want to see something happen to Shu Huan again. So, he just said, “Sell her.”
Those words coming from his mouth was a big blow to Huiyun. She knelt on the ground and didn’t even have the strength to beg for mercy. She only felt very painful in her heart. When the corner of her eyes swept over the broken porcelain, she immediately reached out and wanted to pick it up…
However, Shu Huan had been paying attention to her. When she saw Huiyun’s hand move, she (SH) immediately swept away the broken porcelains in front of Huiyun with her foot. Then, she said, “Go marry someone. You don’t have to learn from me to cut your wrist!”
That was a desperate attempt of Huiyun which exerted all her strength. After being interrupted, she didn’t have the mind to try again. After all, suicide also required a great deal of courage. She could only cry on the ground. She heard Shu Huan faintly say to concubine Yun who came in with tea, “Call someone to sweep the broken porcelain from the ground. I don’t want to get the reputation of forcing a maid to death for someone!”
When the words fell, Huiyun raised her eyes astonished. Through her tears, she saw the face of concubine Yun that had turned pale.
Total Chapters in book: 235
Estimated words: 424262 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 2121(@200wpm)___ 1697(@250wpm)___ 1414(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 424262 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 2121(@200wpm)___ 1697(@250wpm)___ 1414(@300wpm)
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