Synopsis and Starting Chapter Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Chapter 43
Chapter 44
Chapter 45
Chapter 46
Chapter 47
Chapter 48
Chapter 49
Chapter 50
Chapter 51
Chapter 52
Chapter 53
Chapter 54
Chapter 55
Chapter 56
Chapter 57
Chapter 58
Chapter 59
Chapter 60
Chapter 61
Chapter 62
Chapter 63
Chapter 64
Chapter 65
Chapter 66
Chapter 67
Chapter 68
Chapter 69
Chapter 70
Chapter 71 - Arm Got Hurt
Chapter 72
Chapter 73
Chapter 74
Chapter 75
Chapter 76
Chapter 77
Chapter 78
Chapter 79
Chapter 80
Chapter 81
Chapter 82
Chapter 83
Chapter 84
Chapter 85
Chapter 86
Chapter 87
Chapter 88
Chapter 89
Chapter 90
Chapter 91
Chapter 92
Chapter 93 - My Helmet Got Smashed
Chapter 94 - My Helmet Got Smashed
Chapter 95 - Leaving Home
Chapter 96
Chapter 97
Chapter 98
Chapter 99
Chapter 100
Chapter 101 - The Same Voice
Chapter 102 - The Ones Inside Usually Have No Idea
Chapter 103
Chapter 104 - Ambush In The Air
Chapter 105 - I Like You
Chapter 106
Chapter 107
Chapter 108
Chapter 109
Chapter 110 - Rest Well
Chapter 111
Chapter 112 - Not My Boyfriend
Chapter 113
Chapter 114
Chapter 115
Chapter 116
Chapter 117
Chapter 118
Chapter 119
Chapter 120
Chapter 121
Chapter 122
Chapter 123
Chapter 124
Chapter 125
Chapter 126
Chapter 127 - He Played It Too Well
Chapter 128
Chapter 129
Chapter 130
Chapter 131
Chapter 132
Chapter 133
Chapter 134 - The Upgrading Match
Chapter 135 - Stay Away From Me
Chapter 136
Chapter 137
Chapter 138
Chapter 139
Chapter 140
Chapter 141
Chapter 142
Chapter 143
Chapter 144 - It Doesn’T Make Sense
Chapter 145 - Victory In The Team Match
Chapter 146 - Ah Jin Is A Guy
Chapter 147
Chapter 148
Chapter 149
Chapter 150
Chapter 151
Chapter 152
Chapter 153
Chapter 154
Chapter 155
Chapter 156
Chapter 157
Chapter 158
Chapter 159
Chapter 160
Chapter 161
Chapter 162
Chapter 163
Chapter 164
Chapter 165
Chapter 166
Chapter 167
Chapter 168
Chapter 169
Chapter 170
Chapter 171
Chapter 172
Chapter 173
Chapter 174
Chapter 175
Chapter 176
Chapter 177
Chapter 178
Chapter 179
Chapter 180
Chapter 181
Chapter 182
Chapter 183
Chapter 184
Chapter 185
Chapter 186
Chapter 187
Chapter 188
Chapter 189
Chapter 190
Chapter 191
Chapter 192
Chapter 193
Chapter 194
Chapter 195
Chapter 196
Chapter 197
Chapter 198
Chapter 199
Chapter 200
Chapter 201
Chapter 202
Chapter 203
Chapter 204
Chapter 205
Chapter 206
Chapter 207
Chapter 208
Chapter 209
Chapter 210 - Side Story (2)
Chapter 211
Chapter 212 - Side Story (3)
Chapter 213
Chapter 214 - Side Story (4)
Chapter 215
Chapter 216
Chapter 217 - Side Story (6)
Categories Genre: All, Comedy, Completed, Romance, School Life, Shounen Status: Completed ______
Total Chapters in book: 217
Estimated words: 350245 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 1751(@200wpm)___ 1401(@250wpm)___ 1167(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 350245 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 1751(@200wpm)___ 1401(@250wpm)___ 1167(@300wpm)
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He Jin, “…”
He Jin’s father waved his hand and said to his aunt, “we’ve taken the train for the whole night. And it’s the midnight now. Why don’t we go to bed first? And we’ll talk tomorrow. I’ll sleep with He Jin, and you can accompany your sister.”
He Jin was lying on his bed and found it difficult to fall asleep. When his aunt mentioned about his mother, it was as if she’s referring to a psycho. Never had he realized that things have become so serious.
He quickly checked for more information on the Internet and only found out now that his knowledge about “depression” was way too shallow.
Depression has nothing to do with “the inability to think positively”, or “having a bad mood”, it isn’t about being “pessimistic” or “emotional”, it’s actually about the changes in the human brain. It is the change of “serotonin” in the brain responsible for regulating substances such as emotion, vitality and sleep. The concentrations of substances such as norepinephrine and dopamine have changed. In short, the function of managing one’s emotions has broken down.
Patients need to take medicine and that is completely normal. After taking medicine, they’ll become more comfortable. Otherwise, they would always feel anxious and hysterical, and this is the root cause of suicide. He Jin’s mood suddenly became heavier.
The next day, He Jin woke up as someone was caressing him. He almost thought that he’s still in the apartment in A city, he comfortably reached his hand, but he also reacted very quickly – he’s at home! When opening his eyes, he saw a horribly pale face, it’s his mother.
“Mom…” He Jin instantly stood up and called her. He couldn’t believe his eyes – his mother’s face became so wrinkled now. Also, her hair had become so grey, and it still wasn’t like that before he’d left home. Apparently, she had aged so much, God knows how much pressure she had to endure within these six months.
Suddenly, He Jin felt very guilty, and he kept blaming himself. His heart was aching, he grabbed his quilt and whispered “mom, sorry, I was wrong.”
His mother looked at him carefully and touched his face, “it’s good that you’re back. I haven’t seen you for six months, I’ve missed you so much. Mom was wrong too, and I apologize to you.”
He Jin’s eyes became watery, this is exactly the understanding and respect that he’s been looking for. Also, finally there’s peace. He grabbed his mother’s hand and said apologetically, “mom, I’m here, and I’m good.”
The woman was still looking at him, and she asked him details of these six months. He Jin felt worried and he dared not mention about him and Qin Yang. He only said that after leaving home, he stayed with his classmate for a few days. He also lied by saying that he’d been working outside for half a year. The woman felt sorry and she kept crying. She felt guilty of having let him suffer.
He Jin didn’t know how to cover the lie, the only thing he could do was to keep lying to her. Also, he hadn’t seen any abnormalities in his mother yet, and he was still quite optimistic. His father was happy as He Jin’s return seemed to work for his mother. However, his optimism didn’t last long, and very soon, he witnessed what the illness had done to his mother.
That day, they were having lunch at noon. He Jin mentioned about him doing an internship in summer, and he carefully mentioned about his intention of staying in A city to work after graduation. His mother got angry instantly. She put away her chopsticks and said, “no.” She spoke very quickly, just like every time when she rejected He Jin’s demands. No one could interrupt her at all. At the end, she started staring at one point blankly and murmuring to herself. She also started crying and yelling, “how could you treat me like this? How could you be so cruel? You’re such a bad son! I’m your mother! If you leave me, then what’s the meaning of me staying alive? I’d rather die!”
He Jin didn’t know at all how to deal with such a situation. He could only promise her, against his wish, that he wouldn’t leave, and he asked his mother to stop crying. After a long time, his mother still looked like she didn’t want to live anymore. His father then made her have the medicine, and she started calming down.
He Jin started to realize that he was simply too naïve and idealistic.
As he still had to go back to university, he had to leave. After solving the conflict with his mother on the surface, he took the high-speed train back, and he also promised to call them at least once a week and report to them about his life.
Everything seemed to have returned to the past.
After going back home once, He Jin felt like he’d been infected by this illness too. He became utterly depressed and pessimistic. He felt like there’s no future with Qin Yang under such circumstances.
When he returned to University. He didn’t go back to the apartment, but he stayed in the dormitory.
Hou Dongyan asked him about what had happened. He Jin responded, “worse than what I’d imagined.” He didn’t tell Qin Yang that his mother was suffering from depression, but he told Hou Dongyan, “she’s under so much medication. I’ve checked online, there’re many side effects of those medicines. And they’re not good for her body. Right now, my dad is the only person taking care of her.”
Hou Dongyan asked, “then what are you planning to do with Qin Yang?”
He Jin was initially very determined, but at this moment, he started hesitating, “I’m not sure…”
Hou Dongyan, “well, if you ask me, I’d suggest just keeping everything online and in the game. It’s not too realistic to maintain the relationship in reality.”
Right, that’s what He Jin was thinking before. How could two men be together happily in reality? But after being with Qin Yang, he was under the influence of his passion and affection. He felt very happy when he’s with Qin Yang, since he’s always so positive and confident about everything.
“I’ve read a book; it says that everything about love is only an effect of dopamine. No matter if you’re a boy or girl, all of us would lose ourselves when we’re in love. After this stage, we’d find out that nobody really needs to rely on another person.”
Hou Dongyan was only putting himself in He Jin’s shoes and analyzing for He Jin’s benefits. Unexpectedly, what he’d said had also created a big influence to He Jin – that’s right, since the start of the wait eight years ago, He Jin had found things to be quite unreasonable. Perhaps Qin Yang was only holding on to a thought with stubbornness, and perhaps Qin Yang hadn’t been in love with himself that much.
Total Chapters in book: 217
Estimated words: 350245 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 1751(@200wpm)___ 1401(@250wpm)___ 1167(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 350245 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 1751(@200wpm)___ 1401(@250wpm)___ 1167(@300wpm)
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